Portal Opening

We are close to the opening of a new portal.  I feel excited and on edge, both at the same time.  Life as we have known it will never be the same again.  What is to come will challenge us in new ways--ways we cannot even imagine!  Yet, I do not hesitate to step through this portal.  I can do nothing else. To resist this step would be to deny all of what I have prepared for.  To drag my feet would be to deny who I am.

At the same time, I must embrace my edginess because it is my human self responding to the unknown.  What will this step require of me?  Will I measure up?  Those questions come from ego.  The whole of me knows that I would not be at this threshold unless I were ready.

Do I feel ready?  Yes and no.  The human side of me questions my readiness.  My knowing self is jumping for joy.  I take a deep breath.  I call on my personality (human) self which vibrates as yellow to join my soul  (knowing) self which vibrates as purple.  With both sides of me acting in partnership and oneness, I stand ready to serve; ready to experience; ready to surrender to this moment with all that is in me.

I am present.  I am forever changed.  I am alive in a new way.  I will know what to do if doing is the next step.  I am present with all I know, all I feel, and all I am.  That is spiritual mastery.  I have prepared for this.

Am I always there?  No.  But I am fully aware of how I am showing up.  This allows me to celebrate this moment, touch deeply into my heart, and with abiding compassion for the human that I am, I breathe deeply into this moment.

I am here.

I am present.

I am how I am in this moment and that is all I can be.

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This morning I picked a card from the Luminaries (A Prism of Change through Reflection and  Transformational Art) that Lahrinda Eileen and I created.  It's called "Ecstasy."

Here's part of what it says:
"The emotion-soaked coat of yesterday has been embrace and transformed.  the hoped-for magnificence of tomorrow is now.  Open the floodgates of divine/human passion.  Burst forth as a fully resonant song of Ecstasy.

Are you alive?  You are alive!
Are you present?  You are present!
Allow all your brightest colors to flow.
Allow all your sense to evolve in order to fully experience an awakening world around you."

This card set walks you through the change with lots of help and plenty ideas to experience and chew on.

Inner Sunshine on a Rainy Day

Living in the Northwest, I'm used to the rain.  Usually it doesn't bother me, but we've had way too much rain!  We joke that we get webbed feet.  My concern is that it breeds depression because we need light and sun to maintain a high energetic level.

So how can we create that light through imagination?  Here's what I do.  I find a comfortable place to sit or lie down, breathe deeply, and remember the warmth and brightness of a sunny day when I soaked it all in.

Some of my most memorable days were last summer when I would sit in my tiny back yard gently rocking in my covered swing.  Pink fragrant roses from my neighbor's yard come over the fence and over the swing creating a cozy place where I can look at my flowers, listen to the birds and take in the light shining brightly over it all.

The pink from the roses allows that vulnerable part of me to feel safe.  The bright yellow sunlight dissolves any mental cobwebs bringing new clarity to the next steps in my life.

Experiments with athlete's have shown that visualizing themselves running down the track or swimming laps fires up the same muscles and body responses as if they were actually competing on the track or in the pool.  The same thing happens to us when we take time to visualize sunlight.  It feeds the body's need for sun just as if the sun were out.

So next time you are sick and tired of the rain, give yourself a mini day of sunshine through your memory or by creating a sunny day in your mind.  The more details you create or remember, the better.

And, by the way, turning your mind to a color actually draws in that vibration as if your eyes were seeing it.  That's one of the secrets to Complementary Color Therapy--and now you can experience our basic course online. http://transformationaltools.com/online_color_course

Nurturing Aspects of Brown

During this month's Energy of Color Radio Show I pointed out that Brown can show you what's up with your self esteem.  It occurred to me after the show how much a healthy sense of self depends on our connection with the earth (symbolized by Brown).

When you feel nurtured, you feel safe.  Just as a plant is nurtured by the Brown earth it's planted in, so you too are nurtured by the earth.  When you are not grounded (your Spirit is not fully in your body or you are not paying attention to the body) it is impossible for Earth to nurture you.

Without that energetic sustenance nothing seems to flow.  Everything is out of sync.  Your timing is off--you try to do things or say things at the wrong time.  Everything seems harder to accomplish.

Healthy self esteem is partially dependent on that experience of nurturance that comes from Earth.  Being in sync feels like you are home and you are safe.  Feeling good about you is easier when that feeling of home and safety feels grounded in the cells.

Too often our feet fail to connect with the dirt of the earth.  We walk around on concrete, carpet, metal, and so much that is less than natural.  That's why this time of year is so good for us.  Perhaps like me you have been planting flowers or admiring the tulips peeking up through the ground.  Close to where I live there is a sacred walk through the woods that connects me to the earth.  I always feel so nurtured and fully present after one of those walks.  I sometimes have to talk myself out the door to take a walk, but I'm always glad when I do.

I wonder too if this is why so many people like coffee, tea, and chocolate.  These natural Brown substances can connect you to the earth.  The more pure they are, the better they can nurture you. 

Pay attention to ways you can stay connected to the earth.  You are here in this body for a reason.  Floating outside of it disrupts that connection and can affect how you feel about yourself.

Stay connected; stay grounded!  And all is well.

The Fog of Dis-creation

In order to create something new in your life, you usually have to let go of something you already have in place.  This could be called dis-creation.

Lately I have felt foggy.  When I “look” at my energy field, it seems unclear.  

I had a dream that showed me fields of brown grass that seemed dead.  My immediate reaction was to gather up the lifeless grass and transform it into life-giving green.  In my dream, this just wasn’t working.

When I awoke, I asked a friend to help me interpret the dream.  The seemingly lifeless grass reminded me that, like the seasons, we too sometimes go into hibernation while we let go of the specifics of what we have created.  As we spring back to life, the roots of what went before emerge with new life and vibrant color.

Dis-creating is just as important as creating.  Biblically you might say it doesn’t work to put new wine in old wine skins.  The old wine skin will tend to pollute the new.

I also found myself going through my closet, bagging up clothes that no longer felt right for me.  Spring cleaning you might say.  But it seemed to symbolize something more.

I am finished with certain patterns that have kept my work limited to its own special box.  It was necessary to keep it in that box while I came up to the energy vibration that could match where the work could go.  I think I have been ambivalent about what would be involved in taking this work to the next level.  That has shifted.  I can joyously see life in that vibration.  It doesn’t take anything away from me; rather, its flow is easy and fun.

I shout, “Hallelujah!” as the fog clears.  My once concern is now anticipation.

This process reminds me of the Luminary called “Dawning”*   In part it says:  “Life renews itself from moment to moment.  Accept your new growth with faith, even as you push through the fog of uncertainty.  Passionately throw open your windows to the dawn!  Live fully!  Every moment counts!”

Blessings,

Arlene

* “Luminaries” is a book and cards oracle co-created by artist Lahrinda Eileen and me.