Portal Opening

We are close to the opening of a new portal.  I feel excited and on edge, both at the same time.  Life as we have known it will never be the same again.  What is to come will challenge us in new ways--ways we cannot even imagine!  Yet, I do not hesitate to step through this portal.  I can do nothing else. To resist this step would be to deny all of what I have prepared for.  To drag my feet would be to deny who I am.

At the same time, I must embrace my edginess because it is my human self responding to the unknown.  What will this step require of me?  Will I measure up?  Those questions come from ego.  The whole of me knows that I would not be at this threshold unless I were ready.

Do I feel ready?  Yes and no.  The human side of me questions my readiness.  My knowing self is jumping for joy.  I take a deep breath.  I call on my personality (human) self which vibrates as yellow to join my soul  (knowing) self which vibrates as purple.  With both sides of me acting in partnership and oneness, I stand ready to serve; ready to experience; ready to surrender to this moment with all that is in me.

I am present.  I am forever changed.  I am alive in a new way.  I will know what to do if doing is the next step.  I am present with all I know, all I feel, and all I am.  That is spiritual mastery.  I have prepared for this.

Am I always there?  No.  But I am fully aware of how I am showing up.  This allows me to celebrate this moment, touch deeply into my heart, and with abiding compassion for the human that I am, I breathe deeply into this moment.

I am here.

I am present.

I am how I am in this moment and that is all I can be.

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This morning I picked a card from the Luminaries (A Prism of Change through Reflection and  Transformational Art) that Lahrinda Eileen and I created.  It's called "Ecstasy."

Here's part of what it says:
"The emotion-soaked coat of yesterday has been embrace and transformed.  the hoped-for magnificence of tomorrow is now.  Open the floodgates of divine/human passion.  Burst forth as a fully resonant song of Ecstasy.

Are you alive?  You are alive!
Are you present?  You are present!
Allow all your brightest colors to flow.
Allow all your sense to evolve in order to fully experience an awakening world around you."

This card set walks you through the change with lots of help and plenty ideas to experience and chew on.

Preparing for a New Age

What can you do to be ready for the New World that is upon us?  My answer to myself and others I counsel is to pay attention.  What are I feeling?  Who (what part of me) is feeling that?  How can I meet the needs of that part of me so it will release any limiting thoughts and emotions?

Recently, I found myself responding with hurt as if the other person didn't want to acknowledge me.  "Wait a minute", I thought.  "This isn't about them.  This is about me.  Some part of me doesn't feel acknowledged."

As I felt who that was inside of me, I found it was a young girl.  I let that part of me know that she is very important to me.  Through a series of "tools" I have learned to use, I was able to fill her need, shift her energy, and integrate her into who I am here and now.

At first it seems that there is something wrong with how another person acted or spoke to us.  In fact, it's how we perceived what happened!  As we take care of the part of us that is hurt, we can simply observe what is happening without any attachment to it.  We have also just released the part of us that was attached to an event or series of events.

All of that raises our vibration.  Attachments create stuck energy. Freeing the attachments lets the energy flow.

This prepares us for the new life that we are beginning to live.  This is a life of unconditional acceptance of ourselves and others.

Please join me for a presentation by Jana Beeman and me on this very subject Wednesday, September 29, 7pm at Crystal Heart Books in Beaverton, OR.  Check other events as well.

Patience Takes on New Meaning

Patience is not my favorite word.  To me, it has always meant waiting.  I’ve been a person of action so waiting hasn’t been my style.

I could blame it on my Mom who would always pack in too many errands before she picked me up so she wouldn’t have to wait for me.  Invariably she was late! My impatience would grow by the minute.

But, I won't blame her because I know this pattern was there so I could learn a new kind of patience.  My old definition would have had something to do with gritting my teeth as I lectured myself on being patient.  Then, I would be critical of anyone who was too slow--that is, too slow by my definition. 

As we move into a New Way of Being in this unfolding world, I look at my impatience as an example of an old pattern that I have dissolved so that new ones can emerge.

For me patience still has a sense of expectation, but the angst has disappeared.   Instead there is a fine tuned listening and feeling, staying present to the inner prodding that says, “Now!”  Then, and only then, do I proceed with a project, make a phone call, read a certain book, or attend a group I have learned about.  

I trust that the timing will be right even though my mind may want to push ahead sooner.  My mind still thinks it has to be in charge, but I know that would be the old way and I am determined to live from a different set of values. 

I practice being so present I can feel my breath as it goes in and out.  In those moments of breathing I feel the flow of my life rhythms.  Am I in sync or am I ahead or behind my natural flow?  That tells me if I am part of a New Way of Being because alignment with our inner flow is essential in this New World.

How does patience feel to you?  Are you in your natural flow?

Come explore with me what it means to Become a New Human.  Check out my in-person and online classes. 

A New Year, A New Way of Being

2010 is the numerical number 3, the feminine (mother) plus masculine (father) = what you have birthed (child).  We have been preparing for this "birth" of a new way of being.  You may have noticed how many old patterns have come up this year!  That was so you could let them go.  Most of them didn't even need to be dissected.  They were just old energy you are finished with.

Now it is time to pay attention to what is new.  Notice if old ideas don't seem to resonate any more.  See how you respond differently.  Feel your next step without holding back.

This new way of being is closer to your essence--your soul acting through your human self.  Do you feel taller, more capable without the human need to flaunt it?  You can be comfortable with this.  It is you.  More you than ever before!

Happy New Year!  Happy New Way of Being!
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What is the Crystalline Energy?

There are new energies that are affecting us here on Earth. They are taking us to higher and higher vibrations. Are you wondering how to work with these energies that are in the Crystalline vibration? I have just released an E-Book called "Ascending with the Crystalline Energies." Here you will find practical ways to work with these new energies. You can also help to build this energy so that helps everyone in this ascension process. Click the title above to find outmore.

What in the World is Going On?

The last few days have been especially difficult because the energies are fluctuating and much grief and unrest is being released. When I asked what was going on, I saw a wooden barrel with sludge in the bottom of it. I was led to understand that we are bringing up the last of the really thick, nasty stuff at the bottom of the barrel. As we do this for ourselves, we are also doing this for the entire planet.

If you signed up to assist in this process, you are feeling it intensely. I find it’s helpful to know that others are going through similar physical and emotional turmoil. Mine has appeared as nausea from time to time, headache, body aches, tiredness, and discouragement.

Then, as I lie down to rest, the crystalline energy comes in so strongly that my whole body vibrates. Then, I’m ravenously hungry and have a hard time focusing on my projects. At the end of the day, I feel like I have accomplished nothing. That’s when the discouragement sets in.

So, I sit down and have a long talk with the part of me that gets frustrated by all the changes, all the discomfort, and the seeming prolonged time it takes to bring projects to fruition. I remind myself that there is nothing more important right now than staying with the process and holding myself in the higher vibrations with a sense of adventure and a knowing that this too will pass.

Today the energies seem more settled. Will this last? Who knows? That’s the fluidity of our life in these new energies. We set our intentions, visualizing how they might manifest, and then we come right back here to this very moment, faithfully holding onto what we know even if we have not yet seen it in form.

For the rest of my April 2007 Newsletter Article, click the title above